Indecision

Kia Ora blog, it's been a while! Thinking I should blog more, but I've got nothing that I can think if to blog about. The key to a good blog though is relating pictures.

Could do a speel about how cellphone services and plans in New Zealand suck. Or how De Winkel thick and creamy Greek honey flavored yoghurt does not have the slightest hint of honey and that it's a waste of money like those new yoghurts. Or even telling you about Luke Smith's excessive arguing that gets him and everyone else no where, it's a waste of time. Maybe I could blog about how I get to go on a roadtrip to the mount tomorrow. Or maybe express my thoughts about indecision and indecisiveness and how they surround my life. Should just blog about sweet dreams or stories from work. Or how lucky and well off I seem to be, how much I truly am thankful for so much. There's always God to blog about, but everyone seems to be doing a whole lot of that these days. I want to be different, post blogs that people can enjoy, laugh at, use to apply to their own lives and find some satisfaction in somehow.

But no, I'll just leave all that and say it is simply just not the same....

Life, But Not As We Know It

Well life has certainly become different. Not different in a bad way, but in way which is exciting because changes occur, new things happen and you begin to be opened up to things which previously were unknown, unrealised or that were never experienced. Suddenly life seems to have a lot more meaning to it, like songs have more meaning and you can actually relate to them, things like that, lol. And instead of thinking about random facts/info or mostly nothing, I constantly have my girlfriend (lol) on my mind. It's probably good I don't have uni right now, or much of a life, because I don't really have to think about much, apart from how to plug in some power or dmx or figuring out if I can fit stock on the shelf at work not.

Life is brilliant. I love Jesus and what he's doing/done in my life and the lives of people at youth and church. I always remind myself that I do what I do to see other people grow and experience a relationship with Jesus. It is so worth it and that's why I love what I do. As Levi said as well I guess, there is benefits in serving Jesus so much which I am definatly enjoying now. I would recommend it....

It is truly amazing what Jesus has done in my life, even over the last few months. I was DEFINATLY not ready for a relationship before. I have changed so much, and for the better. To be honest, I was a dooche and came across as a grump because things in my life were no where near as awesome as they are now. Now i just want to be the best person I can be, not only for myself, but for the people around me, especially Johnnie. I feel like nothing can hold me back and I'm just on the brink of what God has for me, it's awesome just thinking about it and that I have someone to share it with now.


I'm sure life will continue to become more interesting and I'm excited to see where this relationship will lead us. I do know one thing, and that's that it has started great and I'm sure it will just keep getting betterer!

What's on my mind you ask..?

A relationship...
A girlfriend...
Amazing first date...
Johnnie Mahima

Good times ahead
Living the dream!

Too Humble To Come Up With A Skux Blog Title

Just to clear the air, the reason I titled by last blog "Bernig" was because the rest of my blog was real serious and I was going to blog about Bernig as it was (and still is) rather lol. Classic people at Starbucks making spelling mistakes. Maybe I could tell them my name is Justin next time.... I don't think that will happen. I'll just stick with Gus.

I quite enjoy my job, even though it is flipn freezing sometimes doing freezer work like I was last Friday. I've never shared this with anyone but think about it whenever I do freezer work, so in the spirit of reviewing products, I enjoy dealing with Watties supersweet corn, it's just so malleable and can fit in anywhere, probably my favourite product to stock in the freezer. Woolies, skuxbus.

I don't know if this makes me wierd, bit sometimes I play random games with myself. Like guessing if a car has a towbar or not before it drives pass and I can see whether it has one or not. Or counting the amount of lefties in something like an exam. Or sometimes I wonder what it would be like to stop time. Sometimes I guess how many items I can put on the shelf before I put them up at work. I don't get any rewards from these games and more, but I like to think they make my life a little more interesting and more importantly make life funner for me!

Also, I would like to share with the world the correct way to eat toast (and cook it), my way, something only 2 people have had the privilege of hearing. When it comes to toast and doing it properly, I am rather OCD, it's become quite a ritual. It's got to be Quality Bakers-Natures Fresh-Superthick Toast Bread to be able to do it properly. Two pieces of toast at a time only (unless there's only 1 slice left), and it has to be put in upside down. The piece I eat first will be put in the side closest to the chopping board and the other one on the other side (even though it's a 4 toast toaster). I decide which piece I will eat 1st of 2nd determined by the look of the crust. Perfect amount of toasting and crisping which I have got real good at. Then I have to use Anchor Country Soft Butter (no other softened butter is acceptable and margarine is the devil in fake butter form). Butter the 1st piece real nice and evenly and then the 2nd, as soon as they pop from the toaster or the butter doesn't melt the same and everything's not as hot or fresh. Eating the first piece, I eat the side crust which does not look as nice, then eat half of the top and bottom crusts, then eat out half of the middle and roll it in my mouth so it's upside down so the butter is straight in my tounge (stuff tastes different upside down). then eat the other half of the bottom crust and half of the good side crust. Then eat out other middle half bit (upside down again). Then sometimes take a small bite off the top crust depending on the crust. then put the last bit in my mouth upside down. The 2nd piece of toast is eaten the same except there is no upside-down actions. And that's it! Best toast ever!!

This blog just isn't complete without the telling of a dream. I was waiting till I had a dream to finish this and I had one last night. I had left my house for some reason with a towel and wearing no clothes or anything (kinda awkward. I was catching a bus to Johnsonville that had a shower in it, yet I didn't have a shower. I got to J'Ville Shopping Mall (probs worst shopping mall ever by the way, apart from Tawa) and was jumping round the place in a sleeping bag until I got into Halensteins, which was all done up and woah, not like a normal rubbish one. I was looking for clothes because I needed some. Andy Grieves was at the counter but we didn't really say anything to each other. I saw this sweet white t-shirt with black sleeves and a grey cardy with pockets so was going to get those and then some random girl with her random friend asked me if I grew taller everyday. I was just like "I dunno". Then I woke up. Hopefully I got some pants too...

Peace out, time to study.
I am now friends with Luke Smith on Facebook again.

Life is brilliant!

Bernig

So I've written down this whole list of things that I was going to blog about, that's just how passionate I really am about this! But I decided 10mins before this to change my mind.

I got home on Wednesday night and really just felt like looking at old photos of myself from the 90's (which were the sweetest of days). So I started at 1991 when I was born until I got to 1999. There were 100's of pictures and moments I'd completely forgotten about and it was all real emotional.

Looking back, I don't think at all that I've given my parents enough recognition or the thanks they deserve. They were always there and have done so much for me. I do love my parents. I hope I can do the same for my kids. I remember my dad telling me every now and then how excited and pumped he was that he had a son when I was born and how proud he was to be a dad.

So much has changed since then and stuffs happened, things have been said. By why did it have to change?? Why do I have to be legit crying as I'm writing this, I guess heaps of stuff is just hitting home and I'm grown up enough to understand more and be more aware. It's so easy to remember the times that suck and hurt instead of the great times. Then kinda disappointing to realize that they didn't really have to happen anyway.

When I look at photos of me as a kid, in so many of them, I'm just having the time of my life, care free. It's awesome what time can do, but also saddening. Not that I'm not doing awesome now, life is brilliant, Jesus is cranking and there are so many opportunities out there, but simply because of how things change, not always for the better.

Life's a journey, and I think I understand what God showed me at Huge! Camp on Saturday night. I'm stuck on a tiny island in the ocean and can only see water on every horizon. I know with everything in me that no matter what I've got to start swimming. Who knows where or for how long, I just am. Yet I find myself still standing on the island, why?! There's things I need to do before I can do what I want to do, if that even makes sense.

I guess I do have a softer side and can get emotional. There's so much more I could say. Makes me think, a lot. I blame it on reading Mollie's blog before doing this! Haha, but not really, it's from the heart!

Humble...? Sure, whynot

So somehow, I think my life suddenly just got way more interesting.

Let's be honest, I'm not really that humble. I say and do a lot of stuff which contradicts it, but I do enjoy claiming the title of a humble person, and I think other people enjoy having a bit of a laugh at it, however much of a lie it is. However, I am rather genius and have been told I am a bit of a skux (looking at my new FULL drivers license compared to school IDs, I definatly have to agree with people), so will claim both of those titles. At least I have evidence to back that up....

Just putting it out there.

It's funny what you'll do to procrastinate doing work. I've tried a lot of alternatives. Clean my room, vaccuum the house, go for a drive, hangout at BK, fill out local election forms or even bake a cake (DANG!). Currently I'm procrastinating working on an assignment due next week by doing this, what a joke. It will probably end up like my last couple of assignments which involved me waking up super early the day it was due to finish it off. Then I'll get tired and grumpy and someone will bear the grunt of it (gutted for them). Just want to say though that I've changed, I'm really not that negative. Srsly.

Another thing has been bothering me lately in a way and that is being (i)phoneless. I'm getting used to not receiving C5 texts, church leaders texts and texts that always ask me to do something. Gives me a kind of freedom. Yet I am almost impossible to reach now, kind of disconnected with the world. Hopefully I can have a phone my the end of today, after going without for over 2 weeks. I really do need to sort my life out.

Other than that, life is brilliant, Jesus is cranking and oh, I'm going to see Reliant K (with a side act of Paramore) tomorrow night, meeean Maori.

I guess now I should get working on this assignment. I'll have to get those power convertors from the Hitachi Station later......